Tuesday, December 18, 2007

You are Happy, Impatient Wretch

I think we make a good team.
I think I can do things that make me happy.
I think that 2007 was an interesting year (too early for a retrospective?)
I think I still have a lot to learn, about everything.
I think I need to read more.
I think I've gotten my problem about thinking too much under control (most of the time).
I'll bring home the tofurkey if you bring home your bacon.

This weekend was a good weekend. The big party went well, and I think most people involved had a pretty good time. It was money and time well spent. My hair is getting long, and I'm only getting shorter. I haven't felt very inspired lately. BUT, this always happens in winter. I just want to curl up and think of a million ways to get warm. At least I'm not all mopey and irritable. Though, I do think that one of my New Year's revolutions (revolutions was typo, I meant resolutions, but hey why not a revolution) should be to regain my patience. I used to be soooo patient; People would compliment me on my sheer amounts of patience with difficult things/people.

Now, I feel like people are sort of afraid of pissing me off, due to my extreme lack of patience. I think I know where this came from ... I don't think patience is a virtue, it's something much more estimable. I want to be someone you want to be around. I think that frustration has been running my life for a while. I've been caught up in acknowledging the things that are wrong with my world and terrifying about the world at large. I used to revel in everyday beauty and awe. Perhaps, I was naive, but I think I can maintain a healthful balance of awe and anger. Awe makes me appreciate things and anger/frustration makes me want to enact change. I suppose too much of either is poison.

This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


CrystalCabinet said...

Good post.
It's regretable that we have to switch over to the new year in the middle of winter. The annual introduction of cold and slower pacing makes it kind of a miserable time to reminisce about the last 12 months (in my opinion).
I think I have an overabundance of awe, which makes me kind of vulnerable, but also gets me through most things with a positive demeanor. This sense of anger that you espouse is something I lack. It's kind of fun to talk about anger without its negative connotation. I think that it helps with that particular variety of motivation that can help a person get off their proverbial ass and get the proverbial err done.
See ya soon. Also, see the movie "Once" if you haven't already.

The Last Unicorn said...

Well said sir, and I do believe that your sense of awe is what initially attracted me to you! Positivism and optimism are a beautiful thing. But yes, sometimes anger is a nice thing to have.

I believe that their is a difference between internal and external anger. Internal being a rise of anger due to a lack of capacity to sort out emotions and actions; external anger being a frustration originating from a helplessness to immediately remedy an injustice.

I don't know, ha ha, but I'll definitely check out "Once."