Thursday, May 23, 2013

Biting the Proverbial Bullet

I must be more aggressive about getting what I want and more brave about getting what I need.  Even if that changes daily.  The Last Unicorn needs to stop apologizing for breathing.

To err is human.  To fuck up is fiiine.

Sunday, May 19, 2013


My brain was transported back to middle school this weekend.
I was the best version of myself, but I lacked the fear of the unknown that dominated the psyche of 14 year old lastunicorn.  My voice is hoarse from yelling for mercy from the twists and turns of unforgiving roller coasters and screaming punk rock songs from the tops of my lungs. 

I blushed.  I laughed.  I rasped.  I had a good weekend.  The magic of the night enchanted me.  It was enough.  I didn't want any more or less than what was around me.

I hope these good feelings can carry me through the next 8 weeks so I don't go bat shit insane.

Friday, May 17, 2013

Holy Shit I'm Exhausted

The other day my clinical instructor/ad hoc teacher gave us all a speech wherein he choked up with tears.  The man that gave us so much shit for everything.  The man who drinks tequila and eats nails for dinner got teary eyed .... over us?

He said that we were the best bunch he's seen and that what we do affects people's lives in ways they don't even understand.  He said, we have the power to subtly change the world.

His speech was so unexpected and inspiring.  I'm not exactly sure what path nursing has in store for me, but damnit if I'm not excited.  This rotation saw me peering into the face of death and pulling pacer wires out of people's chests.  It all sounds so cheesy but I found myself glad to peel myself out of bed and meet the sunrise every morning.

Saturday, May 04, 2013

Surprising the Unicorn

Every once in a while something you do or say makes you realize that you're not really the person you were before.  I don't know if that's maturity or growth or just the natural changes that one can expect to move through.  Being self-aware is a double edged sword, but I think I might be a better lady for it.