Don't Make me Say It

Spent the day nursing a hang-over, snowed in, doing homework and thinking too much.  I probably shouldn't have listened to so much Cat Power.



Trying to be all strong and stoic and shit.

I'd like to thank the academy ...

I am a sucker for the Oscars.  I like the idea of being a part of something much bigger than myself.  I absolutely love when the underdog wins.

I need to get inspired.

Not Quite Winter Blues

I've given up on winter officially.  I didn't destroy myself with complaining, I wasn't a hermit, and I didn't let my brain implode, but I think I've had enough.  We can all use some sunshine to temper our cold hearts.  Life is a little too serious on chilly days.

I'm Just so in Love with Life

Camus talks about the world being absurd and pointless but we owe it to ourselves to rebel against the absurdity to make our one existence worth it.  (And maybe have a little fun in the process)

Wind Advisory

Guhhhh, I wanna ride my bike in Puerto Rico soooo bad.  Also, sunshine.

JP

Making poor decisions since 1984.

Buen Provecho

I don't cook often, but when I do, I like to listen to Yawning Man while I do it.  Happy Friday ya'll.

L&D

She said I would cry, but I didn't believe her.  As the head slipped out of the passageway a wave of emotion came over me, also onto my shoes and scrubs.  She gripped my hand and we made eye contact.  "Yo.  It's a girl."  The next five minutes were a blur.  Blood poured from her as the doctor began his work.  My arms became heavy with soiled linens.  "Put those down!  Come and feel the cord pulsing."

So I did.  Wiping tears from the tip of my nose without getting blood or bodily fluids on my face is a skill they didn't teach us in school.  The peds doctor came in and saw me looking dumbfounded, "I know right?  It never gets old."  Even though I watched the entire process, as I placed lil L on the warmer I couldn't comprehend how she just came from inside that.  After assessing the new human I placed her back on her mom's chest while the doctor removed any remaining placental fragments or clots, "Damn, I'm in love." Cue tears.

When I get salty about having to get up early or not getting to go out and get wild, I'll think of this moment.  I will think of the privilege I have to experience such awesome feats of nature.  I'll think of A  falling in love with the newest member of her family.  This frustration at missing out on everything is temporary, but these images and experiences will stay with me forever.