I've Always Struggled with Beginnings

I feel I am on the precipice of ... something.  Every beginning signals an end to something else.  I think that's why I often fight so hard against change, not because I want to maintain the status quo necessarily, but because I am stubborn to let other things go.  Letting go is scary, but I know it's important.  

Listing the Ways

It was his toast, it was her weather.
- The Body Artist, Don Delillo 

Hungarian Rhapsody #2 in c sharp minor

I saw myself sitting alone on the cold basement floor as a young girl, still unaware of the concept of loss.

"I Hate Sleeping Alone -oh - oh -oooone"

Today I realized in one way or another, all of my favorite books and stories are about how sad and fantastical love is.

"I was much younger, much hungrier, much more alone.  But I was myself, pared down to the essentials."
- Hajime, South of the Border, West of the Sun, Haruki Murakami