GMRV!

OMG, I'm so excited for cross season.

Biting the Proverbial Bullet

I must be more aggressive about getting what I want and more brave about getting what I need.  Even if that changes daily.  The Last Unicorn needs to stop apologizing for breathing.

To err is human.  To fuck up is fiiine.

X-Factor

My brain was transported back to middle school this weekend.

I was the best version of myself, but I lacked the fear of the unknown that dominated the psyche of 14 year old lastunicorn.  My voice is hoarse from yelling for mercy from the twists and turns of unforgiving roller coasters and screaming punk rock songs from the tops of my lungs. 

I blushed.  I laughed.  I rasped.  I had a good weekend.  The magic of the night enchanted me.  It was enough.  I didn't want any more or less than what was around me.

I hope these good feelings can carry me through the next 8 weeks so I don't go bat shit insane.

Holy Shit I'm Exhausted

The other day my clinical instructor/ad hoc teacher gave us all a speech wherein he choked up with tears.  The man that gave us so much shit for everything.  The man who drinks tequila and eats nails for dinner got teary eyed .... over us?

He said that we were the best bunch he's seen and that what we do affects people's lives in ways they don't even understand.  He said, we have the power to subtly change the world.

His speech was so unexpected and inspiring.  I'm not exactly sure what path nursing has in store for me, but damnit if I'm not excited.  This rotation saw me peering into the face of death and pulling pacer wires out of people's chests.  It all sounds so cheesy but I found myself glad to peel myself out of bed and meet the sunrise every morning.

Surprising the Unicorn

Every once in a while something you do or say makes you realize that you're not really the person you were before.  I don't know if that's maturity or growth or just the natural changes that one can expect to move through.  Being self-aware is a double edged sword, but I think I might be a better lady for it.

Lost in Space

Today my ex boyfriend told me he hopes I get really fat so no boys would like me.  Relationships are weird.

Last Year

I have some goals for year 29.  Some parameters that I should adhere to.  Mostly I'll just try to fight the good fight and keep looking forward.  I'm excited about things to come.

Guh.

Cars.  So expensive.  So inconvenient.

Getting lost.

I helped my roommate listen to her heartbeat for the first time ever today.  It was really cool to see her eyes light up like a little kid when she found the point of maximal impulse.  Despite all the stress, and the constant self doubt, I really love what I do.  Now if I can just get all the other stuff figured out I might just be all right.

Sometimes I get things done.

Before

After 

I bought an industrial stapler and cleaned out my trunk.  So productive.  Why can't I be like this all the time?

Spring break is over.  Time to get serious.  I had a phenomenal two weeks.  I'm going to try and not complain for the next 8 weeks.  I'm going to think bigger and try and stay out of my brain.