"I Hate Sleeping Alone -oh - oh -oooone"

Today I realized in one way or another, all of my favorite books and stories are about how sad and fantastical love is.

"I was much younger, much hungrier, much more alone.  But I was myself, pared down to the essentials."
- Hajime, South of the Border, West of the Sun, Haruki Murakami  

Daze Off

Hanging out with myself, making foods, dranking fancy coffee, listening to sort of sad music, uber bike maintenance, couldn't be more content.  Finally alone but not lonely. 

Let the Right One In

I cannot commit to ANYTHING.  This is a problem that must be addressed with loving kindness.

Everyone needs their one that got away right?

My only regret is that I never told him how I felt when I had the chance.

Stay Hungry

This is so inspiring.

You have to start somewhere, right?

5 year - BSN, Puerto Rico, move out of DKB House
10 year - NP, Out of the country

I'm in Here

As per our conversation, I am developing a 5,10, and 15 year plan.  Forecast es muy bueno.

Dad as sung by the Blizzard Babies

Yesterday I called my Papi to tell him Happy Birthday! and to tell him that I love him.  When I asked him what he wanted he said all that he wanted was for me to visit more.  Le sigh.  I will try my best to honor this wish, because I love him and that is not much to ask.  I think I've created enough emotional distance between me and the reasons that make it so challenging to be around my family and not feel so exhausted.


In other Dad news, I went on a really fantastically awesome date with a Dad.  A DAD.

Dog's Life

I was barking up all the wrong trees.

Let's Not Try to Figure Everything Out at Once

So I started a new decade of my life.  I left behind the quintessential 20's.  There is less guidance out there about your 30s, I think.  I'm okay with that.  I'm so full with excitement and gratitude.  I really do feel different.  I'm armed with a sense of awe of everything that has passed and an excitement of everything that has yet to come.  

I'm fucking excited about the unknown.  This is a new feeling for the last unicorn.  But whatever, that is a whole 'nother blog post.  As a gift to myself I pledge to for at least the next month to try out new things.  I will make one new recipe, try one new activity (that is a very loose term BTW), or complete one project off my DIY board per week.  Maybe I'll document it on here, maybe not. 

I am learning slowly but surely that change is really really good.  Bring it on, all of it.